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| ...the complimentary update; |
[31 Aug 2009|02:58pm] |
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'Whatcha Say' // Jason Derulo |
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Wow. What a collection of uneventful and uninspiring couple of months. Things have happened and words were lost... Nothing worth going into detail about, though. I'm single again though not by my own accord. Turns out my intuition had some merit behind it after all. He was cheating on me and whatever it was got serious. So.. to hell with all that.
School still sucks but I'm making it a point to stick it out until I either graduate or find a way to get around this degree nonsense.
Social life is lacking but when isn't it? I have the best friends in the world and the greatest family on the planet but I still find myself sleeping or without any energy to get us all together and do what we do best -- nothing with any productive value or entertainment quality for anyone except us.
I need a nap before work... and its hot and I'm restless.
Boo.
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[03 Jun 2009|01:36pm] |
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I'm a mess.
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[31 May 2009|02:19pm] |
I'm alive, I swear.
Life is not all that interesting right now.
School is out and I decided to skip the summer session. I need a break. Besides, its not like I went too much this semester.
I hate the summer. Especially the spiders that come out now that the weather is getting warmer.
Currently talking to an old friend... and that could be a good or a bad thing depending on how good or bad I wanna be and yes.. I still have a boyfriend.
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| ...stupid boys; |
[06 May 2009|12:16pm] |
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Gah. I got laid more often when the boy wasn't my boyfriend!
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[01 May 2009|11:05am] |
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I wandered over to facebook. And I'm not ashamed!
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| ...spring weddings; |
[20 Apr 2009|01:31pm] |
I was given my grandmother's engagement and wedding rings.
I miss her so much.
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| ...birthday bash, bitches; |
[06 Apr 2009|04:31pm] |
I love my friends.
EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM.
And they all know why.
My birthday was friggin awesome. AND.. I got the boy to admit he was my BOYFRIEND. Heehee. So now when I say boy... I mean MY BOY.
Anywho, couldn't have done 26 any better. Seriously.
I LOVE YOU GUYS, MAN!
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| ...i'll be reaching for the stars with you... honey; |
[23 Mar 2009|09:59am] |
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Blue October // 'She's My Ride Home ( LIVE )' |
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Two things-
1. I saw Blue October last night. I shared the experience with my boy, Brian, some of the people who give my heart a reason to beat - Esther and Chris and some really good friends - Heather and Lia. The show will be with me for a very long time... it was amazing. A-effin-mazing. ... I am ELATED.
In this moment, I am happy with no buts.
2. I made a survey of sorts. I was bored and amped. Humor me and fill it out, yeah? Post the answers in your journal or in the comments to this entry.
( I question. You answer. Easy... )
Fin! ... mostly because I'm bored now. Hope it was different enough for ya.
I'm off to bed.... its like 1030 in the morning. I can now fall asleep without risking sleeping all friggin day and being groggy at work tonight.
Night. Love.
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| ...i'm in the mood for love; |
[15 Mar 2009|06:05am] |
I want to fall in love. Hardcore, sappy, romantic, reason to live, excuse to die LOVE.
Any volunteers?
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| ...jeezeleweez; |
[12 Mar 2009|11:57am] |
Started my new job at eight PM.
Got off at seven-thirty AM.
Went to the dentist at ten AM.
Quit my old job at eleven-thirty AM.
It is now eleven-fifty eight AM.
Arious is exhausted.
Goodnight. Morning.. whatever.
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[11 Mar 2009|05:32am] |
I have a new job now. I start Wednesday night at eight. I haven't even quit my old one yet.
Hmmm.
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| ...until the depths give up their dead; |
[09 Mar 2009|11:26pm] |
Leave it to old memories not to stay in their coffins where I thought I'd successfully buried them.
At the thought of sleeping with someone else, my stomach turns and I get this deep guilty feeling. I think its my heart telling me that even though Brian and I haven't had the commitment conversation, there's something between us that demands my honesty and my monogamy.
Sigh.
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[07 Mar 2009|12:29am] |
Ah damn.
Sick.
Again.
effin a
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| ...guilty by design, she's nothing more than fiction...; |
[02 Mar 2009|08:26am] |
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Orgy // 'Fiction ( Dreams In Digital )' |
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Sometimes, that's how it feels. Like I'm a figment of someone imagination... as if I'm not in complete control. But when I actually start to become convinced that this notion, this feeling may be more, I remember that its me - I- Arious , who will be held accountable for my actions -- every single one of them. And that keeps me grounded. Very grounded.
Still.
What if.
And if we all are just figments of someone's imagination, who's effin mind are we locked in?
My money is on Michael Jackson.
It would only make sense.
Gah. I have an hour before I have to start thinking rationally. Allow me this crazy talk before school starts.
Love.
p.s.
Another awesome weekend! Happy Birthday, Tricia-bear! Now that you've taken the first steps into the realm of not-in-your-twenties-dom, come back and tell us what its like! =)
ya know its all outta love.
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[24 Feb 2009|02:15pm] |
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Well, March 12th will be the fifth time in less than a month and half that I've had two people in my mouth at the same time. And so far, its cost me almost six hundred dollars!
I hate going to the dentist.
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| ...I DID SOMETHING AWESOME!; |
[23 Feb 2009|11:32am] |
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Complete and utter SILENCE |
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So.
I made a community and I demand you go there and join.
Its called ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) stealingwords and you simply post the words you wish you'd written or said or sang or screamed.. whatever. The point is someone else said them so you post them here.
Simple concept.
Go join. Make me happy. :)
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| ...doobee doobee dooooo; |
[19 Feb 2009|09:05am] |
I finally made Esther make one of these here livejournal ( i'm trying to get her away from the evilness that is myspace.... bad bad place.. evil ). So, say hi to ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) apoetssecret . Everybody be nice and keep the hazing down to a minimum. Remember what happened last time? ... the cops... the thirty pounds of imitation crab meat... ten days of antibiotics.. yeah, let's not have a repeat.
Hoorah for Blue October! And the two concert dates they've graced southern California with! Thirty ( or thirty-one ) days and counting.
*shakes with excitement. or maybe has just gotta go pee..*
What... else... NOTHING.
What a boring couple of days. Oh, Valentine's was great. I don't want any kind of chocolate any time soon, though. Work continues to suck large donkey balls and school is crazy boring. Finite mathematics is the icky math I did in algebra II only with WORD PROBLEMS! How cruel is that?!
Gah.
At least my homework isn't due for awhile.
Really, that's all I got.
Adieu.
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[18 Feb 2009|03:27am] |
I think I want to work for eBay.
...hmm.
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[16 Feb 2009|09:53pm] |
My brother came home from prison about a month and a half ago.
I thought our relationship could get better.
I believe he's personally to blame for the way things are.
I don't want him to live here anymore.
Its a selfish thought but its what my heart feels.
I don't want him here.
Edit//
And two hours later... you throw a temper tantrum because our mother asked you not to speak to the people in this house like you're the homeowner. A reasonable request, just like the very reasonable request for me to keep the noise down when my friends are over. And you, Mr. Let's All Be Adults Here, throw a temper tantrum because you, also Mr. Felony Charge, feel like she's asking too much.
Get over yourself, older brother. Do us all a favor and stay out of our way. Your anger issues need to be resolved and you need to know I won't let you get away with talking to ANYONE like you're someone's mother.
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| ...i am folded and unfolded; |
[12 Feb 2009|10:22am] |
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When the dust finally settles, the clouds finally part and everyone finally clears out -- its just you. You and the thoughts that have accumulated unaware. What's left to do? Sort it all out, make sense of it all and rearrange accordingly.
Simple.
So, here I stand with a week and half's worth of unsettled thoughts and undigested events. Nothing too big to deal with, though. Just simply spent the last ten days or so putting things on the back burner and dealing with the things that were easy to swallow immediately and readily. Everything else... I'm trying to convince myself that the best thing to do it settle those thoughts and digest those events. To someone who avoids confrontation ( even when its up against myself ) like the PLAGUE, that's not as simple or easy as it sounds. In fact, its somewhere in the realm of daunting.
I think I'm going to go find my bed. An issue easily settled. See? I'm already making progress.
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